I'm sorry this had to happen to you and your family, Nicole. We know you tried very hard and did all the right things for Charlie. Even so, as you well know, not all dogs survive despite the best care. No words can damp the pain you're feeling. I'm sorry to say that not even time will take away the pain. But I can say that with time, you'll recall more sweet memories than painful ones. Console yourself with the fact that you did do everything you could have. Trust us, we know you did. That's not much to ease your pain, but it's a little and it's a start.
During this time of grief, take a little time and find some pictures of Charlie and recall the good times you had. I can say one thing for sure, Charlie would want you to do this. He wouldn't want you to only feel bad. If you want to, you can come here and tell us some of the good times, some of the goofy times you and Charlie had. We'd be happy to hear them.
G